Monday, 8 June 2009

Everything changes but you...

Confusion is the name of the game. Thoughts swirling around my head make no sense at all these days. I don't seem to able to come to the simplest of decisions or conclusions about anything.

I probably won't post here until I've sorted my head out. I'm OK, really I am, but I don't understand enough about how I'm feeling to be able to put it into words.

I'll be back when I start making sense....and for those of you that know me well, you'll understand just how long that might take...

Wednesday, 27 May 2009

Tish and piffle

You didn't really think I'd get it did you? After all the negative thoughts and self deprecation?

Well, I didn't get the job.

I was 'appointable' though - which is nice. Nice to know that I was good, but not quite good enough. Always a good ego-boost that one eh?

Anyway - can't stop to chat...I am working virtually full time this week, due to it being half term, and Michael being off on holiday (he's back at work after his op, but he has taken this week off in lieu of the week he didn't have as holiday at Easter).

Weight loss is now at approximately 2 and a half stones, just for the record. And I can now actually remove my wedding and engagement rings - for the first time in about 5 years. Nice to know that I won't be needing them to be cut off when my finger turns blue after all.

I haven't, by the way. Removed them, that is. I just can.

Sunday, 17 May 2009

Here we go...

Tomorrow is D-Day.

Tomorrow is the day which has the potential to change my future. Or not... as the case may be.

Tomorrow is the day of my interview. At 9.10am I wish be ushered away to complete 20 minutes worth of tasks and preparation. At approximately 9.30 I shall be led to seal my fate in front of a panel of 3. 3 whats I'm not quite sure...

And as the interviewees are now down to just 3...I will know my destiny before the end of my working day tomorrow (3pm).

To say I am nervous doesn't quite cut be honest I'm absolutely crapping myself. Sorry for the vulgarity. I wanted to be more graphic, but restrained myself. I think it would be easier if I was sure whether I actually want the job or not. The job is 37 hours a week, when I currently work 26 (well, nearer 30 normally). It is, however, double the money I am earning now. And I know I could do it - and without being too immodest, I could do it bloody well too.

I just don't know if I want to.

I'll let you know what happens, but if I don't get it, (not because I was shit, but because someone else was better), then I may well be just as happy as if I do get it.

Que sera sera (thanks Doris)

Saturday, 2 May 2009


I've been neglecting you again, my dear blogger friends. I hadn't even realised I had some followers! Thank you!

Not much to report, only that things are manic as per usual. I'm getting used to manic, to be honest. I'm learning to function with manic as the default setting. Good job really.

I have an interview on 18th May for the job I applied for at work - if I were to get it, it would be something of a coup...but I suppose if I'm honest I am probably the least favoured of the 4 candidates up for the position. Still, I am proud to have even been shortlisted. Good times.

Michael had his op, at very short notice, on 6th April (with his birthday on the 7th, he had a lovely birthday pressie!).

My head is still very miuch mixed up about things, and as a result I have lost approximately 2 stones in weight. I did need to lose it, I know, but not in such a dramatic way, and over such a short space of time (about 6 weeks).

I still have more to lose, but I promise I will lose the next few pounds properly!

Can't stop now, as I have other things to do (YES - even at this time of night!).

Thanks to those who've been thinking of me, and if you haven't, then why haven't you?

Tuesday, 24 March 2009


A really quick update on last night's post.

I have some issues to sort, but on the whole they're positive issues. Some more positive than others. Only I can sort it out in my head, and I'm not sure how long that will take.

For the positive comments I've had, thank you. And there's one person out there reading this that knows exactly what I'm talking about and referring to, and to that person, thank you too. I know you're there for me and one way or another you will help me get through these 'difficult' times.

Monday, 23 March 2009

What can I say...

Well, here I month later. Bad Blogger. Again.

So much is happening in my life at the moment that it's kind of difficult to put most of it into words. Some of it isn't my stuff to tell, but I will give you an idea.

Firstly, I am about to apply for a job. I don't really hold out much hope of getting it...but I've nothing to lose, and everything to gain so I'm going to go for it. It's within the Council where I already work, but it would be full time (which carries its own magnificent set of complications), but double the part-time salary I'm on at the moment. You have to be in it to win it so they say wish me luck!

Secondly, Michael has to have an operation. It's not a terribly serious one - one of the most commonly performed operations in the country apparently. But for anybody who knows Michael, he doesn't 'do' sick. He gets restless at the weekends if we don't have things planned for him to do. He likes being busy. It's better for us all when he's busy, I assure you. So how he's going to cope when he has to take 6 weeks off work, I don't know.

And not just 6 weeks off work...but 6 weeks off band too! Beloved band. How will he cope without band? Tune in later to find out! In truth, I have no idea. But we don't yet have a date for his operation anyway, so it's difficult to predict how he will cope, without actually knowing what he's going to miss out on. If it's a contest, then heaven help us.

That's another thing - Newstead Brass came second at the Regional Brass Band championships in Bedworth a couple of weekends ago. This means that they have qualified again to go and play at the National Finals at the Royal Albert Hall in London (17th October). That in turn, means money money money...and lots of decisions to be made on whether we all go, or just Michael...but I daresay funds (or lack thereof) will probably dictate the outcome.

I have been audited at work (a very stressful experience) but all was good in the end. Before I started work last year, an audit was carried out, and our department was deemed to be 'unsatisfactory'. So, the lucky, lucky people that we are, got to have a 'follow up' audit a year later. That was earlier this month. It was supposed to be conducted over two days, but we were (I was) so good that she completed it in just one day! Yey for me! All the changes to procedures and systems I have put in place over the last year have paid off! The auditor even admitted that one particular system which she had huge reservations about, works extremely well and efficiently! Ha! One in the eye for her! LOL!

I do have other issues going on at the moment too, none of which are available for public consumption, but they're occupying my mind somewhat, and making it difficult to sort out my head. I know I've been neglecting things - friends and forums especially, and that makes me sad. I will, once my head is in a better place, endeavour to return to my favourite places.

If you can still be bothered to read my blog, thank you. And if you've given up on me, ... well, you won't be reading this, will you.

Thank you, and good night.

Wednesday, 25 February 2009

Oh, and I made pancakes!

Erm, and there were pancakes too:


Twittertastic baby!

Well then, now I'm getting over my intitial trepidation on Twitter, I'm finally getting the hang of it. After having joined in with a random tweet 'thing' from an Eddie Izzard namesake (heaven forbid I should suggest it isn't the real deal!) I've started randomly following people who amused me (and in many cases, they're only gone and started following me back!). It's making Twitter a more interesting place altogether. All: "It's making Twitter a more interesting place".

I do still follow the Frymeister, Schofe and others...but it kind of makes you realise that whilst these so-called celebs are interesting, there are loads of others out there with equally interesting things to say.

Come on over and join me... (I know, my user name isn't especially imaginative, but hey, any port in a storm!)

Thursday, 19 February 2009

And another one

A wedding card for Emma's sister - used cuttlebug wedding cake, and some Inspire Me paper for the damask looking background. Ivory background card is Stardream and some general burgundy ribbon and gold and burgundy cardstock.

Quick post from me today - here's 4oth card I made a couple of weeks ago for my sister to give to one of her work colleagues. For anybody that does read my blog, you might remember I made a similar one last september for a friend of mine. I liked it so much, that I did it again, something I rarely do.

a Jolly Nation image decoupaged and finished off with stickles glitter on the letters and bubbles, and some glaze to the legs of the bath, the taps and the wine glass. I still like it though.

Tuesday, 17 February 2009

What a week!

Well, I've had quite a busy and flustered week, so I've not been here again! Somebody will have to slap my wrists!

Not much to tell, not that I can put up here for personal reasons anyway, so I'll just show you a few pictures.

The first couple are of the snowmen in the back garden from a couple of weeks ago. Complete with skipping ropes for scarves, frisbees for hats, plastic golf clubs for arms and stones for eyes (and those are stone ears on the first one too - thanks to Sophie for that! LOL) - and the thin black pole you can see is the bird feeder stuck in the middle of the garden. I could probably Photoshop it out, if only I could be bothered!

The card is the one I've had dilemmas over - it's for my boss, Emma, as she's leaving at the end of this week. I'm hoping she doesn't read my blog, or at least not overnight, as she will get the card tomorrow at her 'fuddle'. I didn't have a clue what to do, and I did it late at night, so I can honestly say, my colouring skills aren't up to my usual standard. Coloured with Watercolour Pencils too, as I didn't want to spend time experimenting with the colours of my ProMarkers untilo I found the right combination.

May have a wedding card to show you tomorrow, assuming I actually finish it today! But for now, here's your lot!

Wednesday, 28 January 2009

NVQ and away...

Here I am at home updating my blog when I'm supposed to be working on my NQV. busy day today again - NVQ all day amongst other bits and bobs I need to do, then pick the kids up from school, James has choir from 4-6pm, Sophie is swimming from 5.30-6pm (and James will need a lift home from choir!) and then a Governors' meeting from 6.30 till goodness knows when! I still have a commissioned birthday card for my sister too, which she needs before the weekend.

Better plod on instead of blogging...

Monday, 26 January 2009

Eight going on eighteen

Nothing much to report tonight, but I'm just de-stressing after a nightmare run-in with sophie. What gives an eight year old so much attidute and audacity? Not to mention the constant arguing and backchat. I've had a serious talk with her about her having to calm down, and the upshot is that she got very upset, and promised to try to be calmer.

I still want her to be Sophie...just a little better behaved and less words per minute out of her 'motormouth'. I've told her that if she doesn't calm down, that I'll start by cutting down her e-number intake - and the thought of no sweets really brought her down to earth with a bump.

I'll let you know if it lasts!

Saturday, 24 January 2009

One more

Not much else to say really - but this is the card I made for my friend's daughter's birthday this week. Image is from Ruth as per tha last post. I believe it is a Whiff of Joy stamp - Melinda Blowing Kisses - but I can't find it in stock anywhere :( - can anybody help me?

Friday, 23 January 2009

Poorly pussy

My lovely beautiful gorgeous feline friend has been poorly. Very poorly. In fact, I thought he was off to chase mice in the sky on Thursday night. However, as these things tend to go, he improved vastly overnight, and although I still took him to the vets this morning, he was given a clean bill of health.

Not bad for a 15 year old moggy. She said that in most cats of 15, they would expect to hear quite a significant heart murmur, yet his was pounding away like that of a 3 year old. That's not to say, of course, that there's nothing at all wrong with him, but from the checks she could do, she couldn't find anything to worry about. Bless.

I finished a card for one of my best friend's daughter last night, ready for her birthday today. I haven't uploaded the photo of it yet, so I can't show you, but I will tomorrow. It's using another of the lovely images Ruth sent me as part of my Secret Santa pressie on my forum (she sent me a hand made book, entitled a Year of Cards with a stamped image in each pocket ready for me to use. It was truly lovely, and the image on the sister birthday card from the other day was one that she had stamped too.) I've added the pictures of the book and the other goodies I got below. Enjoy.

Monday, 19 January 2009

8 years ago today...

and I was in agony right about now! Having had an 'elective' c-section (not elected by me I hasten to add! A medical decision was made on my behalf!), and not having a very good reaction to the morphine they kept on pumping into me. However, here we are, 8 years later, and was it all worth it?? Hmmmmmm........

Of course it was (mostly)! Happy Birthday Sophie!

Here are Sophie's birthday cards, the first one from us, and the second was from James (although as you may have guessed, he had very little to do with actually producing it):

Sunday, 18 January 2009

Oh Dear

Well, that didn't last very long did it? I've been so busy with work and general 'stuff' that I haven't got around to doing much crafting, but I have made a couple of cards this year.

I can show you one today, and the other two tomorrow, as they're for Sophie's 8th birthday. I can't believe she's 8 years old tomorrow!

Anyway, this one was for my cousin's daughter, Imogen, who was born 4 days before Sophie. (sorry for the poor photo - it was taken on a phone by my manager at work, as I'd forgotten to take a photo whilst I was at home - it's better than the photo taken by my phone though :-( )

Saturday, 3 January 2009

New Year - New Me?

Well, maybe not, but here I am again! I'm about to start taking all my decorations down. I say all, but all we have up really, is the tree, a bit of tinsel on the mirror, a couple of stuffed snowmen, and the Chirstmas Cards on the doors. It will be quite nice to get rid of them actually - and arrange the furniture so you don't have to breathe in to get past it!

I also hope to make some cards this weekend, so I'll endeavour to photo all my cards this year (I got into the bad habit of not taking pictures towards the end of last year) and pop them on here for all to see.

Thursday, 1 January 2009

Happy New Year

No New Years resolutions from me - 'cause I never keep them. But I really am going to try harder in my aspects of my life - to be more organised at home, more organised with my crafting, try to eat more sensibly (notice how I worded that? No promises).

I will blog more too - even if it's a short and succinct post - just to let people know I'll still alive.

Went to see my Grandad on Monday - he was 105 yesterday. Yes - that's 105 years old! Go Grandad!

James, Grandad and Sophie.